This MYE has really stressed me out.
Friends say:
Ru Ai arh, MYE like that, later prelims you get depression.
after o lvl, u'll be staying in woodbridge.
well.
i've been thinking about many things
during this period. MANY things.
weird things, love things, sad things,
Weird things:
i've been having this weird dream.
all inter-linked about death.
MY death somemore.
weird right.
i begin to htink that there is a wake
at the common space below my block.
den i see all my relatives at the place.
but i just don't see myself.
after that i started seeing things
THINGS, waving at me...
these are recurring dreams of mine.
whaen i woke up, i think of :
1. after death, where would ppl go.
2. have i lived what i wanted before i say bye to the world?
3. what would happen if i die later?
and most amazing, i have an answer to all of these questions
i bubbled up in my mind...
Love things.
i'm in love.
with someone 13 years older than me.
yes.
REALLY in love.
not pure admiration, but really LIKE.
whenever i'm stress, i would think of him.
i would miss him every now and then.
i cant survive, normally without listening to his voice.
i realised something.
being in love with someone,
the feeling is terrible.
when u're missing him, u waiting for an sms,
it doesn't appear.
you want to talk to him, but dun know how to start.
u want to go out with him,
bt he nvr asks u.
all these are symptoms of falling in love
or maybe, having a crush on someone.
real life experience.
of course NOT MINE,
but happened to some of my friends.
it really doesn't and WILL NEVER happen to me.
so i dun really bother.
but the feeling is terrible.
really, terrible.
but ....
with someone loving you, also terrible.
coz you wont know how to reject.
you will like damn paiseh dun know how to say.
later after a while, that person will distance himself/herself
from you.
then you lose a friend.
it normally happen to boys more.
as in what me and my friends have seen, till now.
I HAVE REALISED.
Gaining a friend is very hard.
gaining trust from them, is way harder.
however, the method to lose it,
is extremely easy.
so i hope, my friends that i've gain will nvr be lost.
Never,
Let our friendship, be a never-ending journey that sails
till the end, the place where we dock our life, permanently.
i've also been thinking,
time really flies,
so fast, we've been in Damai for 4 yrs.
and we're leaving it soon.
feels so old...
ohmygod!
all these having been in my mind for the last 2 weeks.
the dreams are really freaking me out.
i just want to show it, i dun like to act.
JJ Maniac Blogged @ 11:42 PM
